Friday, August 30, 2013

MIKA - Live Your Life ["Clean" Version]

Something to start your weekend with. (Tapping my feet while listening to this song)

Tuesday, August 27, 2013


I saw something that I could never forget, and it happened on my first day of swimming class. "I saw old men in speedo" Horror!!!!!!

I Will Not Let An Exam Result Decide My Fate||Spoken Word

Isn't it Ironic?
I listen to this spoken word poetry, which make me think that we should provide our children with option of shaping their future. Emphasis on having more As the benchmark of success need to stop.

Monday, August 26, 2013

Dari Mata turun ke Hati

"Some women flirt more with what they say, and some with what they do" - Anna Held

The best statement of the day "Naz, you are a natural flirt!!!". It seems like I do flirt and I am good at it, this statement was made by a friend of mine, when we were just sitting and enjoying our coffee while eyeing a cute waitress. For me I don't flirt, I am just friendly, overly friendly. 

On purpose?

Last Saturday was my Raya Open House, it was a full day of mayhem and chaos, in a very good way. All of my family members were occupied with the preparation, the cooking, the cleaning, the washing and so on. When the time arrived to greet our guests it was full swing customer service relation attitude, smile and and always smile. 

Out of all the commotion, I forgot the text one of my colleague here at my office my address. I sent invitation to all my colleagues excluding her. It was an honest mistake, I was occupied with the preparation the night before and the day of the event. Or is it? I do wonder did I forget her on purpose because I do consider her as someone who is insignificant. Do I feel bad? hmm to be honest, I don't feel any anything. 

Control Freak

Yesterday was my first swimming class, and it was interesting. The first thing I learnt was breathing technique as well as floating. However, I panicked when it was my turn to try and float, my instructor commented, "It is not that you can't go far, you choose not to go far". I shared my experience with my two friends and one of them said "Naz, you like being in control, so you will panic when you lose control. Naz, you are a control freak!!". 

Yes, I am. I am a control freak and I am proud of it. (",)

Friday, August 23, 2013

Sarah Kay & Phil Kaye "When Love Arrives"

Interesting definition of love

Esther Perel: The secret to desire in a long-term relationship

Erotic Intelligent

"Aku punya manja"

"Aku punya manja ko saja boleh rasa, rahsia kita berdua" - Fynn Jamal (150 Juta)

I have issues with Public Display of Affection or PDA whether the person is gay or straight. However, holding hand for me is acceptable as long as you don't try to act cute doing it. Sometimes if I encounter as such there will be a tiny little voice in my head screaming " get a room!!!!". Fortunately for me, I do have friends that are very open if I display my affection towards my partner, for them I am in love.  But I am the one who is uncomfortable of doing it. I don't feel like displaying it for everyone to stare, gawk, it is like shoving down someone throat "I am in love, accept it!I am in love, accept it! I am in love accept!", to an extend for me it is like over compensating for something that is lacking - people acceptance of the relationship. I would rather that it be a secret between me and my partner of how much we love each other and I have this conscious belief that, people would know how much you love someone even without you displaying it. In the word of Tom Jones "Love is in the air..."

Those who say that I am not proud of who I am, think again, I am proud of who I am, and I am definitely proud if I am with someone, and I would want to share and scream out loud " (partner's name) I love you" so that the whole world can see how happy and content I am, but I choose not to. I don't think that they will even change their mind of how they perceive the relationship no matter how happy I am. The important thing is I know how happy I am.


Funny things about evolution


What I am going to write today is on a topic discussed by two radio Djs "Who would guys go to, a good woman or a bad woman" and the most interesting statement made was "men are indecisive", which for me is so true. They want the company of woman that for them is modern, open minded, and not too conservative but in terms of marriage and bringing to see the parent, they would opt for the "girl next door".  Few years back, my student shared with me his principle about relationship, he said, "Ms. Naz, to summarize it - senang nak dapat senang nak tinggal". Even though at that moment the feminist in me kicked in, I just looked at him walking away hand in hand with a girl that he courted during our journey to the event. And I saw him with a different girl next week. 

There is a belief that women have the tendency to be attracted to the bad boy type. According to researchers women who attracted to the "bad boy persona" tend to be extreme risk takers or seem to dangerously live on the edge - thrill seekers. Plus there are also statements made that because women are "fixer" by nature, being with a bad boy is an opportunity and challenge that we can actually change a man. 

Men and women seek security through two different outlets; caregiving and sexuality. Men use sexuality, women more to caregiving. No matter what the findings are, for me it takes two tango..(",). 

As if..

It took me two hours today just to reach my office, the worst jam ever!!. I am not going to elaborate more on that since Traffic Congestion and Kuala Lumpur are like "Irama & Lagu". And I do want those who preach how "berjiwa rakyat" they are to join the parade of crawling cars to reach their destination, as if. 

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Shane Koyczan - Instructions for a Bad Day

To This Day Project - Shane Koyczan

A very haunting spoken word poem

"We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty"  - Maya Angelou

Manal al-Sharif: A Saudi woman who dared to drive

"You educate a man; you educate a man. You educate woman; you educate a generation" - Brigham Young

Be careful

Anthony Brown

hello dear , nice to meet you on Facebook, you look so beautiful and your profile is very interesting, would you mind if ask to be your friend?.I will be waiting for your respond have a wonderful day .

Seriously!!!!! Duhh, if it is too good to be true, be very very careful.

Mission Impossible - Task 1

Your mission for today if you wish to accept it : -

1. To play a game with your friends or family  - online or otherwise
2. To text a friend that you haven't seen for years and say "hello".
3. To do one thing that will make you smile
4. To be honest with a friend
5. To do one simple thing that You want to do

Share with me the outcome

Sound gay

This incident happened few months back. It was my first outstation, it was in Johor and it involved the whole department. So, my colleague drove the company's MPV which can cater all 6 of us plus the training material. The three hours journey was filled with stories and opinion ranging from politic to sexuality. We stayed there for 2 days and I managed to briefly acquaint myself to a very interesting individual who was very friendly to me (smile) every time our path crossed.  

Our journey back was interesting as well, the topic of conversation was more on LGBT, I do wonder why are they so curious about that. Straight people, they find everything interesting. It started with an artist then expend to many branches of sexuality, and I answered and provided opinion to the best that I can, and my colleague kept on asking me, how do you know so much? I looked at him and said with a smile "I am gay". The whole car was filled with laughter. He asked me three times and I gave him the same answer, yet everyone was laughing as if it was a humorous statement. Hmm, I guess my friends were right "I sound gay, but I don't look gay". 

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Life Changing Decision

"I want you to make the decision, you can choose to do it now, or you can do it during the flight, I am not forcing you, it is your decision".

I heard this one sided conversation when I was in the ladies room. I was wondering at that moment what was happening, who was the person that has to make the biggest decision of her life. It sounded so serious. I finished my business and walked out of the cubicle just to see a lady providing her two-years old son option which cubicle  to choose and whether to do the business now or later. "No pressure" she said. I am not that qualify to give opinion on parenting skills but he is only two, what does he know in choosing which toilet to go into. But looking at it positively, this young man, may have the power to decide whether he wants to go to preschool or not, or which preschool he wants to go. Power to the youth!!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013


Waking up in hotel room, and unable to turn up the heater or turn down an air conditioner has taught me one lesson - Never go to bed wearing a short pants.

This is my last outstation with my current employment, and it is in Sungai Petani, Kedah. I used to live in Kedah, and I had my first crush here. After 27 years and only now I am back in Kedah, and it is for work. Hmm, I should think of travelling more for my own self-satisfaction. 

"o.m.g, I can't feel my leg - it is freezing" said the lady writing this entry under the cover.

I am a nerd but a hot sexy one

Until today, this year is the year of bitches. I was told to stay away from a friend, I was told that I was dumped out of respect, I was told that the only beautiful thing about me is my bosom, I was told that I would never be with someone because of how opinionated I am, I was told that I am a boring individual, I was told a lot of things.

The title is a bit condescending, but hey, I was told that by someone and it made my day. "I am sexy and I know it..."

Monday, August 19, 2013


Honestly I was stuck thinking what I should name my blog. In the end, just hehecartoon, a word which has no special or hidden meaning behind it, just a name that makes no sense.Making sense of everything can be a bit tiring, it is like finding excuses and justification for everything that happen, but in reality there is no need to think too much especially when dealing with people. They will surprise you in any way.

Last December, my relationship ended, tho, I would never know the real reason, I actually stop wondering about it, I stop torturing myself with the word "if" and just say it wasn't meant to be. Maybe that relationship isn't the one for me. Recently, I met a lot of people through online social networks (which I deleted all the accounts) and through introduction of friends, all have stories behind it but I can sum it up in one word "refreshing", endless supply of story to write and share (but there will be some I keep them for myself).