Friday, February 28, 2014

Hidden Agenda

Rescue me! Rescue me!
YES! Your home is MINE!!!!


"Sweetness of doing nothing"


Study - Dinner

Mum   : "If you have nothing better to do, go and further your study"
Dad     : "You should do your PHD overseas"
Sis (1) : "Make sure that you are choosing the right choice"
Sis (3) : "You need to stop until your master, I won't be able to chase you guys"
Sis (4) : "Studylah, you guys have the brain, I have the beauty!"

Hahahahahaha. My family discussion over dinner.

Thursday, February 27, 2014


I met someone. We went out few times, she introduced me to her friends and her colleagues on the same day. Tea with her close friends and badminton with her colleagues. She is an interesting individual, I might be attracted to how open she is with everyone of her sexuality, and she even shared with some of her family members. Well in her words "Let just go with the flow".

A day in Kuala Lumpur

Monday, February 24, 2014

Outed myself

I have badminton now every weekend, with bunch of interesting individuals. Most all of them are gay and some are not.I am keeping true to my policy "don't ask, don't tell". However last two sessions I outed myself accidentally after the game, yesterday was the recent one.

Friend : Seriously I didn't know you were gay, until you told me just now
Naz    : Oh! but you were really into the conversation we had after every sessions, I thought you knew.
Friend : Nope. 
Naz    : (In my head - you and your big mouth!)

Final Outdo

I went to Outdo last Saturday, and it was announced that Outdo is taking a break for an indefinite time. I was introduced to Outdo last year by a friend, which I found it is a very good platform for discussion. And now it is no longer there. *Sigh*

Thursday, February 20, 2014

So true.....

Try harder beb!!!!

Catnap - Simon's Cat

I have 25 cats!!! Imagine when all of them sleeping in a room......


I don't know what is wrong with me tonight, I googled my ex, and I found her blog that she completed for a requirement of her course last year. When I clicked, it went to the page "get to know the author & her acknowledgment". I saw her photo, and  she looked so happy and her acknowledgment to the person who is in her life now. 

I even composed an e-mail, using the e-mail address she put as reference for any question and answer, telling her that I have forgave her and I wanted to apologize for the all the outburst the day that I found she is with someone else short of few months of our break up and the oath that she told me was a lie. I was about to click send instead I discarded the e-mail. I went through all my old entries in  my previous blog, those I shared about her, memories we had.

The weird thing is I end up smiling reading the posts and all the comments.Seriously I don't know what is wrong with me tonight!!!!!! 

Smitten - Simon's Cat (A Valentine's Special)

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

One fine day....

3 bottles in front of me, and I am contemplating what would be the game plan, should it be 2:1 or 11/2 : 11/2 or 1/2 : 1 and 1 to be saved. Hmm, after few minutes of thinking I decided that it will be 1/2 : 1 and I will save one. So, with that I mixed one bottle with soap and shook it nicely, off to the bathroom with both bottles in my hand, 1/2 of soap and 1 bottle of water to rinse. 

That was one fine day in 1998, a week after I enrolled to further my study in one of the local university and water crisis happened. I survived a week with that formula and never missed a class. (",)

Tuesday, February 18, 2014


I am sitting in front of my laptop thinking of what to write, should I write; about the stress that is currently caused by my client, who wants me to assist him in organizing his staff, which is impossible if people are complacent, or about "my green eye monster" of looking at how easy it is for others find someone instead of me having to be rejected, ignored or being sought after only if they need something or about what I believed what life should be, ideology, my perception, or about being nice isn't getting me anywhere, except of heartache and headache or I can choose not to write about all of the above and just sit in front of my laptop thinking.  

Sunday, February 16, 2014

14th February

14th February - Valentine Day

Full blast of love songs on the radio - LOVE SONGS SO OVERRATED!!!!!! (said the person who got dumped a year ago), if she was still with someone - O.M.G THIS SONG IS SO ME!!!! (Kuang..kuang..kuang..) hehehe

Work! Work! Work!

This is what I do. Hmm, and yet people think my work is easy. (P/s : This is only ONE client). To be honest, it is a very challenging job, and in TWO months of doing curriculum and program development, I am almost burnt out. Mental exhaustion can really take a toll on a person. 

Soon, I will start my final semester, and looking forward to do my PHD. 

But for what it is worth, I am finally doing something that I know will make a different in someone's life. 
If you want changes, take steps in making them. 


My friend made this statement "Naz, you need a social life, your life should not be about work, live a little". And I do agree. So, I took her advice and now every weekend I am playing badminton, and just hang out. Three weeks ago,I injured my knee, and I made the decision to go back home, and to rest. 

My mum looked at me and said "Main badminton wakil negeri mana, injured kalah pro". 

I am glad that I made the choice to go out and play badminton, and live a little. Now, time to check off few things from my bucket list!!!!

Human Nature

I made the decision to work as a freelancer since September last year. And it has been one hell of a ride. I have client who lied to me when it comes to payment, I have client who promised the world to their clients and just hoping that I would make it a reality. People still have the misconception that doing an educational and training programs are easy, just like copying from the internet and "tadaa" it will miraculously appear.

But all the problems aside, it is an experience, even money can't buy. I met a lot of politicians, I experienced how lobbying works and to what extend that a person would do just to outshine someone. 

The Good, The Bad, & The Ugly of human nature. - Priceless!