Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Chasing the Sun

Took these pictures on an outing to Tanjung Sepat with a friend. I am not a good photographer, but I do love the sun.


Tanjung Sepat / 27.10.2013
"All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king."

J.R.R Tolkien, The Fellowship  of the Ring

Thursday, October 24, 2013

A little bit of Kindness

I had to explain to a friend why I am helping her out in so many ways since our friendship is just recent. I tried to explain without being cheesy or implying that I am such a saint. However, who could blame her for having such thought that people are expecting something back, because there is the mindset of nothing in this world is free.

Is just that for me with all those screwed up things that happened in a person's life, a little act of kindness can go a long way.

I like the way Snuze summarized it "Naz, you can't help yourself, you are just wired that way".

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

No expectation

"If you expect nothing from anybody, you're never dissappointed" - Sylvia Plath
"When you stop expecting people to be perfect, you can like them for who they are" - Donald Miller



 - Everyone wants happiness nobody wants pain, but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain -


Words written on wall of a cafe in Perak

Imaginary slap

1st Imaginary Slap

My first experience with an imaginary slap was during my matrix years. I became close to a friend that I said "hi" while queuing up to use the public phone. We hit it off immediately, and started to hang out, however she did not know that I am gay and I don't plan to tell her and scare her away since it was a very hot issue at that moment. One night I went to visit her in her dorm room, and I met all her 9 roommates. I shook hand and politely smiled, and one of the friend after I shook her hand, took off her prayer cloth (telekung) and quickly rush to the toilet to take her ablution again, and I saw she was rigorously rubbing her palm together trying so hard to wipe something from her hand. Then I found out rumor was spreading throughout the college that I am gay and my touch is "haram". 

PANG!  A slap to my face.

2nd Imaginary Slap

The 2nd slap happened when I attended my company annual dinner. During this time I had a crush on my close friend which happen to be my superior at that moment. So during the dinner, I went to see her and we had a chat and she suggested we look for one of our close friend among the sea of people. As we were maneuvering ourselves, I hold her hand and so that both of us won't be seperated. When I did that, quickly she pulled her hand away from me. I was surprised, until the day she said, I know you are gay, that is why I did that. 

PANG! A slap to my face

3rd Imaginary Slap

This happened last night. I spend the night at a friend's house, since recently she is faced with few difficulties. We went to bed, and I can feel that she was restless, maybe because I snored and woke her up or something. So  I turned, I asked "Are you owkey?" and I patted her back, her reaction was a surprise for me especially it was accompanied with the sentence "Don't touch me". As I turned to my side, as I closed my eyes, I can hear....

PANG! Another imaginary slap to my face. - sigh -

My Perak Trip

Went to Perak last Sunday, just for fun, and to cheer a friend up. She introduced us to a very unique place in which we end up enjoying hot drinks and good food.

The most memorable thing is that I reversed my car and accidentally hit and old Mercedez. Starting your day with a bang! Literary

Monday, October 14, 2013


I need all the help I can get... hehehehe


Family Day / Port Dickson (29th September)
"If you aren't in the moment, you are either looking forward to uncertainty, or back to pain and regret"
(Jim Carrey)

Chilling at Chiling

Last Saturday went trekking with a new friend. I wanted so bad to go to this place after it was being promoted highly by a friend of its serene beauty. Chill babe!!!!

Careful what you wish for...

Previously I blurted out that how I wish I can ride on a tow truck (even put it in my bucket list). Well that wish came true, and my car got towed due to malfunction of the alternator. *face palm*

Friday, October 11, 2013

5 hours meet

I met someone online and it was an interesting meet. We had interesting conversation beginning at 8.30 p.m until we were told to leave the restaurant and we continued the conversation else where and ended it at 2.30 a.m.
She described herself as a complicated and difficult individual, but for me she is eccentric and interesting. Made another new friend. (",)

Friday, October 4, 2013


In my previous entry, I shared about the class I registered that highlighted the campaign to create awareness on the negative impact of LGBT as a failure, and that we have a hidden agenda of putting someone gay as a minister in the cabinet. 

One of the requirement of the class is to organize an educational activity that create awareness to the public about pressing issue.  

To all my fellow friends, the group of homophobic confused easily influenced students has elected me (a gay lady) to lead them in achieving 40% of our passing grade.... One small step to conquer the world!!!!!!!!!!!! (Sarcasm)

The Price of Chivalry

Yesterday, wasn't my day. My car broke down at the petrol station around 11.00 p.m. I looked around for assistance, none were that helpful. As a final effort I asked a taxi driver, and he agreed to jump start my car but with a condition and I agreed. 

After a very successful attempt, the uncle hold out his hand and I nodded in understanding. I placed in the palm of his hand, the price he has set for his chivalry - RM 10.00.