Matter of the Heart

The matter of the heart is never easy,
When one can only watch from a far and act happy,
When looking for the one seems like looking in the haystack,
When all you find that you are only good as friend and not an ounce more,
When you act of kindness is construed as an act of being desperate for a person's attention.

The matter of the heart is never easy,
When hate consumed every corner and eat the remaining love that you had,
When all the happy memories you had, faded and replaced with hateful thought; as you believe that it will make the transition easier.

The matter of the heart is never easy,
As Oscar Wilde said "Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead",
As Buddha said " The way is not in the sky, The way is in the heart",
As Anne Frank said "Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart".

Yes. It is complicated and never easy.

Window

Crush

I do wonder, if someone out there is crushing on me... well, I will never know that is why it is call a crush..duhhhh. (",)

Friends

Last night a close friend called and informed me that his mother has passed away. When he broke the news to me, I felt tears trickled down my cheeks, and I felt the need to be there for him and hug him and tell him everything will be fine.  It was around 8.00 p.m. and it was raining, and I didn't have any mean of transportation to travel back to Seremban because my car is currently in the workshop. I cried so hard last night, and I send a voice note to a friend, whom I befriended 3 weeks ago. Giving her circumstances she drove to pick me up and send me back to Seremban. We had a minor disagreement, because she cares and she was worried of my well being and me being stubborn and worried about her well being in return.

I went to my friend's house, I saw the sadness in his eyes as he smiled and he hugged me, and whispered to me, "Thank you for being here, thank you so much". And throughout that night even for just 1 hour, I stood by his side, and sometimes he hold my hand and I squeezed back as a gentle reminder "I am here for you". 

To my friend whom I befriended 3 weeks ago, proved to me that a little bit of kindness really can go a long way. Thank you.